My Pull of Gravity

I don't really believe she's my mini-me but every now and then its nice to think so ahaha.

I want her to grow up as herself. I know she is going to be great.
I'll always be here for her.

My little star. My hip, smart, and charming little bruha :)

I pray you'd grow up with wisdom, heart and a strong spirit. Do not be afraid to live your life. Never let your mistakes define who you are. Believe that at times when it seems that everything has gone wrong, that you'd be fine and you'd rise from it.

You'd be proud to know that you're mom (me, in this case, wala kang choice haha) is not perfect but that I am a woman of strong heart in my own way.

And while I may fail in many things; I can fail as friend, a lover, even as a person but I will not fail as a mother. (Or so that is my goal, let's pray to God I dont give you mommy issues as you grow up)

I super love you Czesca.

Sigh.

Sa Panig ng Kontrabida

Sumasakit ang ulo ko.

Ito na ang isa sa mga alam kong ikagagalit ng opinyon ng marami. Well kung di kayo agree sa akin, okay lang ganito talaga ang buhay, may kontra may kampi.


Ganun talaga sa love. Minsan ikaw ang bida, minsan ikaw ang kontrabida, minsan ikaw ang api.

Be ready to take on all roles.

AT MALALAMAN NIYONG WALA NI ISA SA KANILA ANG MADALING GAMPANAN-WALA.

Hindi niyo man magampanan lahat ng ito in your lifetime, lets say hindi mo na try maging kontrabida, good for you, but you still have to consider the possibility, you have to consider na may ganyan, it doesnt mean na dahil hindi directly nangyari sa iyo that its not real or that it doesnt happen in a normal world and na may karapatan ka, na may alam ka para makealam. CONSIDER.

Simula pa noong unang panahon hindi naman nabago ang mga kwento ng hiwalayan.
Its just not working anymore. There's someone else. Im sorry. Hindi na kita mahal. Things changed. Your bf is a dog. Your gf is whore. LAHAT NG NANG IWAN GUSTO NIYO PAPUNTAHIN SA HELL. OO na ikaw na kawawa, ikaw na bida, ikaw na mabuting tao. Ikaw na ang tama. Sana makarma sila. Sana mapunta sila sa panget or kung panget ka rin sa mas panget. Sana mag hirap sila. Sana maputulan sila ng kuryente. etc.

Hindi ko sinasabing bawal mong ipaalam na masakit, na ang hirap at na galit ka.
Wala namang pumapasok sa pag ibig ang nagplano na o nag se set ng expiry date or time kung kelan sila maghihiwalay, lahat naman tayo akala natin 'this is it'.

When they leave you after you tried everything to make them stay, let them go. You cannot make them stay just to keep yourself happy, to keep your dream protected, because then you're probably no better than them, they just want to be where they could be happy as well, they go sometimes because yes they dont deserve you, you dont deserve them, its for the best oo punyeta pati yang its for the best totoo yan.

Im sorry. The truth is you dont have to deserve pain in order to get hurt, in fact it hurts also because you didnt really deserve it. But this is life.

Ipagdadamot mo ba yon.
OO na ikaw na dakila sa pagibig.