No Air No Air

Czesca: Mommy, marami bang pera si Jesus?

Me: Bakit mo naman ask kung maraming pera si Jesus?

Czesca: Di ba give niya tayo ng blessing para dami tayong pera para punta ako sa playhouse?

Me: yes blessing yun ni Jesus, but madami naman klaseng blessing Czesca

Czesca: Anu yun?

Me: For example, nakakahinga tayo kasi blessing ni Jesus yung air sa atin, di ba di ka makakahinga pag walang air?

Czesca: Yes

Me: oh lets try, close your mouth and ipit ko your nose…

I gently pinched Czesca’s nostrils close.

Me: oh di ba? Di ka na makahinga?

Czesca looks at me and says: Mommy, inipit mo kaya nose ko…

I laughed, the girl has got a point.

Jesus In Our Hearts :)

Czesca: Mommy, asan si Jesus nakatira?

Me: Dito sa heart mo.

Czesca: Hindi kaya. Hindi kaya kasya si Jesus diyan.

Me: Jesus lives in your heart.

Czesca: Anu gawa niya sa heart ko? Hindi kaya house ang heart ko.

I laughed.

Me: Czesca, that’s not what I mean…

Czesca: Eh di ba nag e-eat ako food dito dumadaan yung food (pointed to her chest), natatamaan ba si jesus?

Me: Hindi naman dumadaan sa heart ang food, anyway, I mean…Jesus is in your heart kasi di ba you love jesus?

Czesca: yes

Me: we keep the people we love sa heart natin.

Czesca:…

Me: Czesca, now do you understand?

Czesca:….(nods)

But I bet if czesca only knew how to tell me, she’d say “HELLOOOO…kaka four years old ko lang kaya…understand…understand…I don’t understand!!!…”

PaMaNa

You know how at times when people pay you a compliment about your body; sometimes you go and say something like “I got it from my mom”. Your long legs, your eyes, you hips, your boobs, they’re beautiful DNA heritage you got from (usually) your mom. It wouldn’t be too nice to hear you got your…lets say boobs… from your dad.

So anyways, I was in my mom’s room, studying myself in front of her mirror and I started saying how I got too much of my father’s DNA focused on my siopao-cheeks. Since my father is dead, I decided to blame her and joke that she owes me a Buccal fat removal procedure. ;D To which she told me:

Her: Hay nako, tumigil ka nga diyan..ewan ko sa iyo…

Me: Anung tumigil, eh ikaw nga jan, nagpagawa ka pa ng boobs…arte lang…

Her: Ano kaya kung gusto mo, pag pinatanggal ko na, lipat natin sa iyo? Gusto mo?

Me: Eeeew….yuck… ah… pwede ba mi.

Her: Anu ka? Magandang klase toh ah. And mahal na klase hindi yung ordinary.

Me: Hindi naman bagay sa kin yang ganyang size dahil iba body structure natin, O.A. sa akin yan ewww…at tagal na niyan ah. No way ewww. Anu ka ba?

Wala namang sampalang naganap, biruan lang and a few rolling of the eyes and raising of eyebrows and animated facial expressions.

However, if I actually decide to take those implants for myself, technically I could still say ‘I got it from my mom’ hahaha.

Paki Plastic =)

A good friend came to visit a day ago. We talked. We laughed. Its good to have real friends you can talk about things which the not-so-real-friend won't understand. :))

For example, totoo naman, i mean sige wag nating lahatin :)) pero its true...and it happens. Sometimes we meet people who we like pero at the same time minsan mayroon silang super kakaibang level na annoying side, and then when that happens we tend to talk about them (facts of life: a.k.a. talking behind their backs na rin tawag dun) And we talk about how they talk about us and how they think we wouldn't know... so who's to know if they already know we are also talking about them :)) Baka its just going on in a circle, pero voila, like magic we're all still friends. :D life is funny :)


And another fact of life: lahat tayo galit sa plastik. :)) ( Fine Ayaw sa Plastik :D)

Pero sa totoo lang aminin man natin o hindeh, sadya man natin o hindeh, minsan plastik din tayo. Pagandahin natin ang term, kelangan pilitin natin makisama or magtiis, it doesnt seem mature din naman kung lahat ng taong hindi mo feel, tataas-an mo ng kilay, mega papakita mo prangka ka ora-mismo, ever ready ka sa basag ulo at tarayan :)) parang mali rin di ba? Parang ang cheap. Pero paano sabi naman ng iba mabuti ng cheap at least totoong tao. :)) oh well san ba tayo lulugar people? :)

Whatever you choose to do...lets try to do it with grace.

Alam niyo pag sinabi ko naman with grace eh pwede pa rin naman kayo lets say magalit...ma high blood...yung grace input niyo na lang sa choice of words hehehe...

Well well well that's life. :D

(To my real friends, sagad hanggang buto :)) nagbabasagan man tayo minsan :)) we're true friends :)) )

My Pull of Gravity

I don't really believe she's my mini-me but every now and then its nice to think so ahaha.

I want her to grow up as herself. I know she is going to be great.
I'll always be here for her.

My little star. My hip, smart, and charming little bruha :)

I pray you'd grow up with wisdom, heart and a strong spirit. Do not be afraid to live your life. Never let your mistakes define who you are. Believe that at times when it seems that everything has gone wrong, that you'd be fine and you'd rise from it.

You'd be proud to know that you're mom (me, in this case, wala kang choice haha) is not perfect but that I am a woman of strong heart in my own way.

And while I may fail in many things; I can fail as friend, a lover, even as a person but I will not fail as a mother. (Or so that is my goal, let's pray to God I dont give you mommy issues as you grow up)

I super love you Czesca.

Sigh.

Sa Panig ng Kontrabida

Sumasakit ang ulo ko.

Ito na ang isa sa mga alam kong ikagagalit ng opinyon ng marami. Well kung di kayo agree sa akin, okay lang ganito talaga ang buhay, may kontra may kampi.


Ganun talaga sa love. Minsan ikaw ang bida, minsan ikaw ang kontrabida, minsan ikaw ang api.

Be ready to take on all roles.

AT MALALAMAN NIYONG WALA NI ISA SA KANILA ANG MADALING GAMPANAN-WALA.

Hindi niyo man magampanan lahat ng ito in your lifetime, lets say hindi mo na try maging kontrabida, good for you, but you still have to consider the possibility, you have to consider na may ganyan, it doesnt mean na dahil hindi directly nangyari sa iyo that its not real or that it doesnt happen in a normal world and na may karapatan ka, na may alam ka para makealam. CONSIDER.

Simula pa noong unang panahon hindi naman nabago ang mga kwento ng hiwalayan.
Its just not working anymore. There's someone else. Im sorry. Hindi na kita mahal. Things changed. Your bf is a dog. Your gf is whore. LAHAT NG NANG IWAN GUSTO NIYO PAPUNTAHIN SA HELL. OO na ikaw na kawawa, ikaw na bida, ikaw na mabuting tao. Ikaw na ang tama. Sana makarma sila. Sana mapunta sila sa panget or kung panget ka rin sa mas panget. Sana mag hirap sila. Sana maputulan sila ng kuryente. etc.

Hindi ko sinasabing bawal mong ipaalam na masakit, na ang hirap at na galit ka.
Wala namang pumapasok sa pag ibig ang nagplano na o nag se set ng expiry date or time kung kelan sila maghihiwalay, lahat naman tayo akala natin 'this is it'.

When they leave you after you tried everything to make them stay, let them go. You cannot make them stay just to keep yourself happy, to keep your dream protected, because then you're probably no better than them, they just want to be where they could be happy as well, they go sometimes because yes they dont deserve you, you dont deserve them, its for the best oo punyeta pati yang its for the best totoo yan.

Im sorry. The truth is you dont have to deserve pain in order to get hurt, in fact it hurts also because you didnt really deserve it. But this is life.

Ipagdadamot mo ba yon.
OO na ikaw na dakila sa pagibig.

BookMark

We are all books, being read everyday, for a minute, for a moment and even for a lifetime.

Everyone is a reader, some avid and some reads simply to encircle the many errors in it.

In this sense, at least we should be glad the world has something in common after all.

Aside from being born sinners, we were born books and bookworms.
And the real dilemma is not that we have the tendency to be judged by our covers but that it is not all the time that we understand what we are reading.

Are you reading me now?