BORED - passer ;)

My thoughts bounced off the walls of the classroom like a rubber ball. I stared at her. The apple green polo shirt kept my eyes on her and the gold buttons on it glamoured me. I crossed my legs and leaned back on my arm chair. I could feel the cold air from the aircon touch my skin. I wished I had my jacket.

Thinking of nothing-thoughts, her voice would fade away into the background and then come back like a wake-up call. It penetrates into my consciousness but nothing more.

Slide 25. I thought 21 more slides and we are done. My disinterest was not completely surprising but yes it made me feel irresponsible.

Pulling my tissue napkin over my mouth, I coughed. The sound of a lion roaring with a chicken stuck down his throat crowing, came out of me. My chest hurts from so much coughing.

There is a jungle inside of me and it is in chaos but my face could only remain unflinched, unmoved and uninterested. There you go. In other words. Im bored, I just wanted to go home, lie on my bed and stare at the ceiling. Sigh.

Tayong Dalawa

Pag tipo kasing pareho na lang tayong dalawa na nakaupo sa may bandang likod ng jeep at kitang kita mo naman na ang layo natin sa driver pareho...medyo mas tama ata na ikaw na mismo magabot ng bayad mo =)

I pushed my ass forward one at a time all the way to hand her fare money to the driver "bayad daw po". As I was doing so, I was already thinking this,haha that she had to hassle another passenger this much (in this case: me). I sort of let out some chuckles and a smile and told her sweetly ha "hindi na ata pakisuyo ang tawag dito...utos na ata pag ganito"

MiSS,HINDI AKO KONDUKTOR! =) hehe~ just kidding~ but hey I'm a good neighbor...so I still did it. haha. Ma reklamo lang =)

Oh-well

Minsan... hindi na ako sure.
(silence.)
Hey. ano masasabi mo?
(silence.)
Hey.
hindi na rin ako sure.
tapos?
ayoko na rin.
(silence)
JOKE!!! BWAHAHA.WALA.WALA. TRAPPED KA NGA DI BA. TRAPPED!!!
Baliw! Sabi ko na nga ba.
HAHAHA TRAPPED!!!
Ewan.

Black Holes

Like forceful Black Holes in the beauty of space,

And fireflies, suicidal in pursuit of bliss,

Each kiss condemn me fearful and helpless,

And all passion replaces the blood in my veins,

They run me, secretly they run me.

But then I do not care at all,

When we are so close,

To being black holes and suicidal fireflies.

You haunt me just as I haunt you,

But we are perfect for it,

No secret was ever more clandestinely mutual,

No touch had ever been so warm

yet cold at the same time

Than that which we do not share.

Than that which should not exist.

I wrote this last June 3, 2009 and included this in this semester's school paper. =)

Taking the Tests

When I was younger, I thought I was apart from the world I know - that I am not this or that kind of person, or that I am only this and that kind of person. But life is also like a test, you wouldn't really know if you passed or failed if you haven't taken the test yet. So for example you've never been in the kind of shit another person is in, think twice before you say something bad about it (",) You just might be doing no better than he/she is if that were you. Because things are easier said than done. And also, having said that life is a test, you know what the good thing is? that what really matters is not if you failed or if you passed but what you learned from it.

I'm not trying to lecture anybody - sorry if I sound like it. I am definitely no master in life's many tests either. I just wanted to share this thought so maybe we'd remember to always think twice before we judge not only people but the many complicated situations of life.
Because we have to admit it, each of us is a cast in the story called life, but each of us are also an audience to somebody else's life whether it be coincidental, momentarily or even accidental - it is inevitable that we'd have something to say about someone else and more often, a flaw is more easily acknowledged than beauty.

Giving Chances

This year God showed me that first impressions are nothing but hardened dust. Until you learn to wipe them away in order to see closer, you get stuck with seeing just dirt. I am not a saint. I don't end up liking everyone I meet instantly, I think that is normal anyway. What I'm saying is I learned that just because you started out not liking someone doesn't mean it's a dead end. Whenever is the right time, you have to at least make a sincere effort to give people chances even when you don't feel like they deserve it. Maybe its not about who you're giving a chance to, but what you are giving a chance to. Give friendship a chance.

You Know Me ...Not

Its amazing how some people would assume they know you based on what they imagine you to be...dont feel bad because of what they think of you ♥ ♥ everyone gets misunderstood ♥ ♥ bec we are all somebody else's imagination♥ ♥ unless they become lucky enough to really get to know us. (",) so don't hate. let it be. Some people were never meant to get close enough to know us. ♥ ♥ Cherry December!!! ♥ ♥Its about time we do something more than tell ourselves "I am misunderstood"